Relativity

What do we really have? What chances have we really got? Who is really there around us? How much control do we really have? I guess these are the questions alot of us really ask ourselves. I might just be the only one actually. I just have this huge heart in me I know its big. I want so many things and I know I can have all of them, depending on my effort and my dedication.

I want it all so bad. I want it with such an intensity that it brings tears to my eyes. Sometimes I ask myself if everyone is like this, if they care with such a huge portion of their heart. I know we dont really feel with our heart, but it represents something so special. I think the most profound thing that came to my mind today is that people relate sex with love and love with sex when really Love stands on its own and sex is a whole different realm. What if we think sex is necessarily in a relationship just because that is all we have ever really known? It has a lot to do with philosophy.. at least I feel it does. What we learn is what we believe and most people dont test beliefs... thats a really scary thought.. to go outside the norm.. Or atleast it is, why the heck is being different so scary. We are not all uniform who had to tell us that this is it or this is good or this is whats right or this is whats wrong. WE define that. WE get to choose. What is our own happiness. I think the smartest people are the ones that took risks to find the unknown. Isnt that what all this technology or gadgets or cars or houses or seriously anything is... just someone taking a risk to find something better. Putting things together that no one ever said would work or make anything.... who knew we would ever fly in the skys. SERIOUSLY why are we scared of the unordinary if the un ordinary is what gave us absolutely everything that we love today. GAH! my mind is going crazy.....

to calm it down. Be you. Always and everyday be you. With the most humble heart. This is what I want. I want to make people feel like they exist for a reason, and to know who they are.... to really know them.

Humility does not mean thinking less of yourself than of other people, nor does it mean having a low opinion of your own gifts.  It means freedom from thinking about yourself at all.  ~William Temple