There is a journey when you get to meet a new face. There is awkwardness of so many silent moments that not knowing a person cant quite fill. There is a time when you hang around them and you make up questions to just play a game. Theres moments when your not sure what exactly to say, or if they will think your crazy with the jokes you make. There is moments when your not sure you willing to spend the time to get passed this stage of a new face
There is all this effort made to build up to laughter and friendship. Then you feel it changing slowly... you see the moment when silence becomes less obvious and you start to slip into this comfy place. Where a new face becomes critical to your day. When seeing them makes you miss them in every way. You start to realize the silent moments are filled with memories and the awkwardness has disappeared away.
You know this new face. You know their dreams, their goals, you know secrets that they have never told. You can hear their laughter even when they are not near. You know how they feel even when they try to hide their expressions. You know what makes them mad and what buttons to push just for fun. You know this person and they steal parts of your heart every day. You watch the way they treat others and know their intentions. You know how caring they are and what they would do for you with out mention. You know them... Atleast you think you know them.
But... One day it wont be enough. It wont be enough for you to be you and for them to laugh at the same jokes you tell. It wont be enough to give your friendship and be willing to do anything for them. They will want more. The more you can give. The pain will rush in and you will watch as all the time and all the memories get washed away. Like they didn't seem to exist in the first place. You will wake up one day and feel this pain in your chest and feel it pulse to your finger tips and you will hurt but you wont quite remember. The emptiness will only just linger.
