Strength

What can you say about strength. I can tell you how people define it about me. I can tell you what I hear so often I sometimes believe it to be a dream on repeat. "I wish I was as strong as you"I hear that echoing through my head... As strong as me? Where is your definition of strength coming from. You see me. You watch the actions I preform day in and day out. You say strength is dedication. You say strength is working out. You say strength is waking up early. You say strength is working hard. You say that strength is trying new things. You say strength is changing your life. You say strength is walking away from people that don't seem to fit your lifestyle. You say strength is never giving in. You say strength is me..So.. What is strength? If I am strong, by what people define me as. Strength is second guessing. Strength is being so tired but getting up to live another day. Strength is breaking down. Strength is crying harder that most people understand. Strength is not knowing who you are. Strength is being lost in your own thoughts. Strength is doubting what love is. Strength is wishing for a different sin. Strength is falling apart. Strength is not always being sure. Strength is never knowing how to be who I need. Strength is wondering how to live. Strength is wanting to run away. Strength is not knowing if I wanna wake up the next day... Have we defined it yet? There is nothing more real than our strong desire to define everything, but is the definition real? or... Is it just real because someone defined it?

Battles within ourselves are real. Love is real. Thoughts, feelings, pain, suffering, happiness, peace, and change are real. Whats real to you, and whats real to me. Those things will always be different. Never forget how different we are. The battle for happiness in life is shared, but I see your path and it is not mine. I see his path and it is not mine. I see her path and it is not mine.. The only thing that is mine I have not found yet but I am not done searching.



“The first step to change,... is accepting your reality right now. Honoring your process. Compassionate self-awareness leads to change; harsh self-criticism only holds the pattern in place, creating a stubborn and defensive Basic Self. Be gentle with yourself as you would with a child. Be gentle but firm. Give yourself the space to grow. But remember that the timing is in god's hands, not yours. page~147” 
― Dan Millman, Sacred Journey of the Peaceful Warrior